After a certain time of healing you get better in the things that you do, maybe you've improve your work ethics, you became a better person and you somehow tend to have a bigger circle of friends. Yet that person scent or their voice seems to hunt you, calling you in the middle of the night/day, but you are strong enough to say “ No, i don't care for you, i am what i am because of you”  it made you a rock to an extend that you can be heartless at some times, because you just wanted to feel protected in some way, and you know that no one can protect you but only you. Sometimes you won’t even know why be so nice when everyone is cruel? is being nice is really what i am? But hey your tired of being nice because you've thought that your wound have healed and you think that the best way to protect yourself is no other than you yourself being your self protecter